You may have noticed that I haven't been posting lately. All summer I've been feeling really bad. I've been sick and worried. Everything I ate seemed to make my stomach hurt and bloated, which made me worry more...which made me feel even worse.
I finally saw my doctor last week. After talking to me for a bit, and doing a couple of tests, she knew right away what was wrong with me. A combination of IBS and anxiety disorder.
When she was talking to me about anxiety, it all made perfect sense. I've always been a worrier, and I've never dealt with stress well. On really bad days, even thinking about stressful situations will make me panicked and upset. About six years ago, my parents were separating and I was worried about school and the future and everything around me changing. My doctor tried to put me on anti-anxiety meds then, but I didn't think I was that bad...just stressed.
So for the last week I've been on meds (for anxiety and IBS) and I'm feeling so much better. I haven't felt that panicky twinge in my stomach at all and my digestion is getting back to normal. I feel like my old self again...the old self I was on really good days.
I'm also supposed to change my diet. More fiber, less dairy and fried things. Oh how I miss cheese! My grocery store doesn't seem to carry much dairy free things. I need to find somewhere that I can get soy cheese. I did find some substitutes for deserts. Odwalla Bars (the chocolate chip Peanut ones are wonderful) and some yummy non-dairy chocolate "ice cream."
Anyway, now that I'm starting to feel better I'm going to be posting more often. I'm working on a bunch of things at once...Queen of Spades character designs, some new plushes, and drawing the cover of the Divita preview for Justin. And I've been playing with watercolors! So much fun!